Have you found yourself questioning many things this past year? Important things? What you really want in life, relationships, work… Maybe you’ve been experiencing a mild sense of dissatisfaction, or to knowing that things just aren’t working, and something’s gotta give.
Our world is changing in leaps and bounds, and sometimes it seems like it’s spiraling out of control. Do you sometimes feel that way? I know I sure have, especially this past 6 months.
I’ve been contemplating so many things; business, relationships, and health to name a few. It’s interesting how I found myself being very slow when it came to booking shows this past year… maybe that’s because I’ve been doing shows for over 30 years! Oh, I am dating myself! LOL! Yet, I haven’t been too worried about it. In some ways relieved. Sometimes we just have to "let go" in order to create space for something new to take seed.
I’ve been allowing myself to sit in the "not knowing" and just BE. Connecting with the Creator and tuning deeper into my heart’s desire and asking, “what does my heart really want?” I did quite a bit of journaling last summer and found that very helpful. I think sometimes we get so busy we can’t hear our inner voice. But when we take time to get very quiet… we can hear the inner nudges… the whispers… of what the heart is wanting.
And in that quiet space we can find greater clarity, self-awareness, and inspiration. I admit though, it hasn’t been easy. I’m so used to doing, planning and being “on”, even though I meditate most days. But that lost feeling kept niggling in the background. Our lives have become so ingrained with patterns and conditioning that we think, well, this is what I just do, this is the way it is.
Slowly I found a deeper acceptance that it was okay not to know… and to TRUST that I would be guided. I asked how can I be of greater service in this world; what would make my heart sing? And in the quiet I found ideas creeping in that my mind would say no to and giving me logical reasons why my ideas didn’t make sense…even though my heart was fluttering with excitement!
Sitting deep in the heart like a caterpillar in its cocoon… healing, awakening, transforming. Holding the energy of what’s true… deep within, ONLY to be revealed in its perfect timing…
“Just when the caterpillar thought the world was over, it became a butterfly.”